The Week of Netzach
I have been challenged by my physicality this week. My body slowing down. Sensitive to food. I am aware I eat too much sugar. That when I eat fast food it affects my digestion. My tinnitus is high and I am challenged to hear. Insomnia haunts me. I have weights by my bed to keep my muscles alive. I am told to stretch before I get out of bed. All the forms of my physicality manifest around me.
Energy low and having to work to keep pushing through. I feel the pain of the people in the desert moving forward. Each day measuring energy and form. The less I carry the better it is. The more I open my heart and let go of anger and resentment the more energy I have. Stacks of books I have yet to read. Poetry I have yet to transpose.
Netzach, memories and music. The second day takes me somewhere between judgement and music. I listen to Jackson Browne’s “Running on Empty”. It reminds me of Reuben’s Steakhouse where Paragon (a local cover-band) played live music Wednesday thru Saturday nights and they would always close the night with that song. Listening to the CD, the opening of the song is 30 seconds of silence waiting for the music to begin. It’s a live recording. In my mind, I can hear the shuffling of the waitresses and bartenders at Reuben’s, serving late night drinks. The band tuning their instruments and chatter from the dancers on the floor. The guitarist finally strumming out a downbeat and the opening chord hitting you like a body shot. At the last break in the song the lead singer for Paragon would yell “Goodnight” and we knew it was last call. I would walk in to Reuben’s sweaty from work, dance and drink. I loved a waitress who worked there. I wonder if she still has that picture of a movie star I gave her.
I breath, I meditate. See what needs to be taken care of. See the self-care that I need to invest in. I play tennis, write, create, reach out to friends. My world is large. I marvel at how vivid a memory can be, all from the silence of a song.
The music this week made me dig and search. Open my ears. I danced.
Playlist for the week of Netzach
Day 22. Chesed in Netzach. Soul Meets Body by Death Cab for Cutie
(lyrics vibrate the meaning of the spiritual meeting the physical)
Day 23. Guevara in Netzach. Running On Empty by Jackson Browne
(the emptiness of “last call” energies I still carry in the desert)
Day 24. Tiferet in Netzach. Love Will Keep Us Alive by the Eagles
(this song always awakens compassion and light)
Day 25. Netzach in Netzach. Room To Move by John Mayall
(Endless possibilities, moving forward, dancing forward, past the half way point.)
Day 26. Hod in Netzach. Working on a Dream by Bruce Springsteen
(the struggle of bringing my dreams into physical reality, the energy of perseverance)
Day 27. Yesod in Netzach. Life is a Highway by Tom Cochrane
(lyrics sing to me and shake the sefirah. Dance of bringing our work in the world)
Day 28. Malchut in Netzach. Changes by David Bowie
(Netzach’s challenge of facing my physical self at 67 years old)
What did you dance to?
Zack Hoffman 2017